
I didn’t anticipate that Josh and I could feel like empty nesters before we even had kids. But let good friends move in with you for a fortnight (we Victorianists even visit Victorian style), and see where that gets you. Our guest room is so empty now. Look at it — just waiting for someone to come back.
It’s not really having houseguests for two weeks that is making me sappy. I do cry at AT&T commercials, so any confusion on the matter is certainly understandable. But empty as our guest room may be, what’s sad is that it’s become somewhat symbolic of the larger emptiness that’s been stealing upon me for the last month. First, Jennie moved herself to Texas. Then, Stacy (who moved last summer) went back to Indiana after a couple of visits. On the same day, Jessica drove off to Illinois. And last weekend, Deb (and houseguest Ron) also flitted off to Illinois for the fall semester. One by one, they are leaving the Iowa nest and settling in elsewhere.
Having moved away from Omaha as soon as I finished college, I never had to go through this phase before. I was one leaving rather than one left. Both positions are difficult, but in leaving, there’s at least excitement as you anticipate what will be; in being left, you know precisely what to anticipate: your regular life — just without the people who have shared it with you and made it better just by being there. (Thank goodness Josh is yoked to me for life!)
So this week I have been reluctantly re-learning how to be alone during the many hours when I can’t pester Josh. Admittedly, it’s not altogether bad for me. I’ve spent the last several months socializing with friends and family to the point that it would do me some good to sit down and remember what it feels like to work. And it has felt good. Have I mentioned here how much I love Augusta Webster? I have been bursting all week with awe and admiration of her.
I just wish there were someone sitting across from me at the coffee shop to tell. Friends, Prairie Lights and “The Morm” are just not the same without you.